Could this really be happening?

Mittelschmerz is a medical term for "ovulation pain" or "midcycle pain". Nearly 1/4 of women experience mittelschmerz, some every cycle, some intermittently. 

I've always known I had stomach problems. It's only now that I'm beginning to realize when these stomach problems occur. I know that I have a really bad upset stomach that comes in waves which require runs to the restroom every 45 minutes for a few hours a few days before my period. I know that occasionally I will have some sharp pains in my stomach. Having started reading the 2 books I got on fertility, I read about ovulation pain, this "mittelschmerz" that some women have. A tell tale sign that ovulation is occurring. Well, here I am, close to my anticipated ovulation date if I do ovulate, and this pain occurred. Of course, I guess I'll have to wait to see my temperature tomorrow to see if that was in fact what that pain was, but there may be hope after all! But, one calendar app I use on my phone had my anticipated ovulation date as today, another had it at tomorrow. Coincidence? Maybe, maybe not.

It really needs to cool off

I'm not a fan of these 110 degree days in August. Really. It can go away now. I have not worked out consistently since the race in May. Granted, I did want to take the rest of May off. So, I have June through August. It's just too hot! I am in no way motivated to go to the gym when I get in my car after work and my car is scorching hot. Before work is not an option, my gym is not open before work starts, and if I allow myself to come home first, there is no way I'm going to leave to go back to the gym. *Sigh*

Because of that, I have put back on 10 of the 15 pounds I lost while training for my triathlon.

I leave Thursday after work for Orange County to participate in the Disneyland Half Marathon Weekend. My sister and I are both running the 5K race on Saturday morning through Disneyland park. Sounds all fine and dandy, right? Sure, the course takes you through both Disneyland and California Adventure (the finish line is on Main Street before the park opens). However, it is still 3.1 miles. I couldn't run 3.1 miles while I was training, much less now after not going to the gym since May. I was thinking no matter what I'd be ok as the course started at one end of Downtown Disney and took you to the parks. Now, it starts at the parking garage and you run the tram route before going into the parks. That's not nearly as fun nor as distracting as the Downtown Disney portion. I'm really going to feel like I'm running! Hopefully my sister will stay with me, camera in hand, and we'll take pictures along the way wearing our Mickey Ears!

Moving forward

I guess my blog is quickly becoming more about baby fever than about the Suns. But, with the team having not played since April, that is expected, right? We do know our game schedule having gone to a half season now and are gearing up with a few things, but really, they still don't play till October, and that is just preseason.

With that, on to more baby talk.

Jason and I were swimming in the pool yesterday. Our plan (or at least my plan) was to put the TTC on hold once September hit to probably March or April (leaving a very, very short amount of time each year) due to not wanting to be extremely pregnant over the brutal Phoenix summer months. We talked about if we should stick with that plan or not, and it seems that we will not keep with that plan. If it happens, and I end up 7, 8 or 9 months pregnant in June to August, he'll have to deal with that and with me. :)

In the meantime, I did pick up two books that I've started flipping through and reading sections of. I picked up Taking Charge of Your Fertility after a few recommendations, and I also picked up What to Expect Before You're Expecting. I've only done a little bit of reading tonight and I have already picked up some more things to know and remember and such. I've also gone ahead and made an appointment with a new OB/GYN for an annual exam next month and I plan on discussing Clomid and such for my PCOS at that point, just to get it on the table even if I don't start it right away. It has only been 2-3 months, I just know of that little problem I have.

I did see the news piece on Fox 10 last night on PCOS. They didn't get into my concerns with PCOS, just the weight factors, the diabetes factor (which is not a concern of mine yet) and the excess hair factor (what about the hair loss!). It was still neat to see and see a TV news show talking about what I have in one of their broadcasts - and it was on before I even tried to fall asleep!

I do have to get back to the gym. I have less than 3 weeks to my 3.1 mile run at Disneyland with my sister. I'm really looking forward to it, but I need to make sure I stay under pace so that I can finish the race! My sister and I talk about bringing our cameras on the race and sprinting really fast to a photo op, taking the picture, then sprinting to the next one. It should be a lot of fun, and it will be the first time in a VERY LONG TIME that it will be just me and my sister at Disneyland. We'll be staying at the Disneyland Hotel which will be my first time since the wedding, though obviously we won't be in the Honeymoon Suite.

School is in full swing now for Jason. His first day was today and he has practice at night. Ahh, the joys of a band director's wife. I just get such a kick out of watching him conduct on stage or leading his marching band on the field for a competition.

Adding someone else

Now my hairstylist is pregnant too. She's actually 5 months so the last time I saw her she was very early on and not telling people. She's due December 30th - it's a girl.

As much as I don't want to

Jason is very much a planner. He doesn't like to have things sprung on him. So, with our "not trying but letting things happen" method of a baby is so not like him. But, neither of us wanted to go in and plan and schedule as to when we had to get busy and try. We recall Friends with Monica and Chandler and don't want to do that. At all.

So, with that, I've only been keeping track of my CD1s. I'm starting to think about what to expect if we need assistance due to my PCOS. I can see a doctor asking me to chart and temp first before signing up for something like Clomid. So, to avoid a few extra months of waiting before something to happen during our "not trying but letting things happen" days, I figured I'd go ahead and chart and temp and the whole thing that way we'll have some sort of "proof" to show if I am ovulating or not. I'm not going to have a clue as to what it all means or how its supposed to look, but, you gotta start somewhere. 

But, we're not "trying". 

:)

Along those same lines of being prepared and planning... I'm looking for a new doctor, but I also want to take into consideration the hospitals too and base my decision on the hospitals and what they have and the doctor itself. Currently looking at 2 offices/2 hospitals on two completely different sides of me. One is further away but is supposedly the better facility. All stuff to consider while I have somewhat of a sound mind. I wonder if I can get a tour as a non-pregnant lady...

My Heart since Jenni tagged me

My Heart: Here is what you need to do:

The rules: "With as much creativity as you can muster, show your heart in: a picture, a poem, a song (or piece of music), a phrase (or quote), an item of clothing, a place, and (just for fun) a Disney princess. If you want to join in, tag six more blogs!

My sister means the world to me. We may be 9 years apart and live in two different states, but I do not know what I'd do without her. Even on my wedding day when she refused to get out of bed to have breakfast with her sister with her hair in those god awful extensions. We have only grown closer over the years. 

I'm going to have to get back on the poem...

Song: Send in the Clowns

This is the corps song to the drum and bugle corps I marched for two years 10 years ago. 

Isn't it rich? Are we a pair? Me here at last on the ground, you in midair. Where are the clowns, send in the clowns.

It's not the happiest of songs, but to me it says to look for happier moments when things may be bad. Those 2 years in that activity were some of the best years and I continue to be very passionate about each season that comes.

Quote: The only person that can tell you you can't is you, and you don't have to listen.

I love this quote. It really helped me get through my training for my triathlon. I knew people would expect me to not follow through with the race. When I read this quote, I knew that what people would expect didn't matter, that I'd like to see them try to do a triathlon. 

Clothes:

I love jeans. I could live in jeans all day, every day. I am more comfortable in jeans and feel more like myself in jeans than anything else, including flip flops. 

Place: 

Where else but Paris? I fell in love with this city. I've been to a lot of places across the country and across the world and many I would go back to (it helps that Jason hasn't been to many places before, so I have an excuse) but I would get on a plane right now and fly back to Paris if I could. I absolutely loved it. I loved my experiences there, the people, how my relationship grew with Jason while I was there... Jason agrees with me though. He would go back today if he could. It was just fantastic.

Disney Princess:

Belle. I think it has to be Belle. For a long time, Beauty and the Beast was my favorite Disney movie (it has since been replaced with Peter Pan). I remember watching the Academy Awards when it was nominated for Best Picture wishing and hoping that it would win over that Lamb movie. I would always sing the Aladdin soundtrack, but Beauty and the Beast held a place in my heart right next to Donald Duck. There was just something about Belle that drew me to her and to that movie. In fact, if the wedding dresses based on Disney Princesses were out by the time I got my dress, it would have been themed after her.